So you're going to Heaven...
But undoubtedly nothing hurt Darwin as much as a letter sent to him by his wife, Emma, a devout Christian who worried that the views he was espousing would keep them separated through eternity. On it, he wrote: "When I am dead, know that many times I have kissed & cryed over this."
I often wonder at this aspect of the Christian religion. It was a part that I had to deal with every day when I believed: what happens when you are "separated through eternity" from people you love? It isn't a trivial question, and rarely has it ever been so.
To be specific: the Christian religion states that every human soul exists forever. In most versions of Christianity that exist today, a soul can have only one of two possible destinations after the finite life of nature ends: infinite time in Heaven, or infinite time in Hell. Real problems come up when one considers the possibility that you may expect eternity in Heaven, but a loved one will spend it in Hell.
I wonder about the savage minds of the people who have written about Hell. The Jewish concept of Sheol, if you read the Old Testament, seems to be a dull, dry "land of the dead" sort of place, not unlike the afterlife described in Ursula LeGuinn's "Earthsea" books. But as we get closer to Christianity and the Gospels, it appears to quickly become a place of heavy-handed punishment and torture. Once you get to Revelation, it's a thoroughly nasty place.
Maybe this evolution of Hell took place in order to scare people into the early Church. Or perhaps it was a means of scaring people into staying in once they joined. Certainly, under most circumstances, this alternative destination of souls has been and continues to be somewhat effective in its apparent role. After all, every effort is made by Christian denominations to get whole families into the religion and keep them there. It is a common occurrence. And an awful lot of the time, Christian folks tend to care more and associate more with fellow Christians, which helps insulate them from this hellish problem.
In my own life, however, it has caused nothing but heartache. When I accepted this story about the Heaven/Hell dichotomy, I believed I was heading for Heaven. But it worried me that I thought my parents and sister (and several other non-immediate relatives) would be sent to Hell. At first, I tried to convert them. This was probably just what the guys who loved from the very first to preach about Hell would have liked to see.
When I "backslid" into atheism, and told my wife of my apostacy, she was immediately plunged into this same world of anguish. She didn't want to face the idea of her being in Heaven while I got an infinite punishment in Hell. Several friends I've made in my life have reacted the same way. Many have spent countless hours of their lives hearing of the horrible, frightening, painful fate that awaits the "unsaved." When they discover that they care about someone who is obviously in this camp, as I am, they come face to face with this ugliest of aspects of their religion.
Most Christians have no problem with picturing themselves in Heaven. While their mental picture of the place is always fuzzy (due to lack of imagination on the part of Biblical writers), they still like the idea of spending an infinite amount of time there. But what must go through the mind of a person when they discover something that will lead them to the conclusion that a person they love will spend eternity in Hell?
Well, Jesus is reported to have said that his followers should abandon their family and join with him. Sounds pretty damn cult-like to me. And I've known a few who would take that advice, and cut off contact from "evil" children, parents or spouses.
I lived for over twenty years with this problem. In my experience, I can report that the times when I was reminded of it, I preferred not to think about it. Honestly, I think that's the only way to deal with the idea. Assuming that you don't want to get rid of the idea of Hell and eternal damnation, that is.
For those who think it's necessary to keep Hell in your religion, I ask you to think on this subject. Oh, I know a few common dodges for it: God wouldn't send my mother to Hell. She was a saint! God wouldn't allow my toddler son to grow up outside the Church! He loves little children! Yeah, right. Look at what nature has done to the children of New Orleans, and what the God-fearing armies of America have done to the children of Iraq, and tell me that God loves children.
Now, focus, Okay? The first part is easy... you've been doing the first part a long time. Imagine yourself in Heaven. Everything is GOOD, everyone there is happy, doing whatever it is that they plan to do in Heaven. I don't know... singing bad Baptist hymnal songs. Whatever. The second part is hard. Imagine the person in your life who you love the most, and that God decided that she or he wasn't a "True Christian"® or that forgiveness wasn't asked for sincerely enough... whatever your beliefs about it would lead you to think would keep this person out of Heaven.
How would you feel? Honestly, if you were in Heaven, among a throng of happy, loved and loving people, and all of you were anticipating infinite time in that state... would YOU feel happy? Would you devote any part of your time in Heaven to thinking about that lake of fire and column of everlasting smoke of torment mentioned in the Book of Revelation? Could you really express unalloyed love for Jesus, knowing that he was personally supervising the eternal torments of Hell... and your loved one?
I wouldn't be at all surprised to hear from someone, saying that they'd be just cool with their Mom (assuming she was the one loved the most) being eternally burned in Hell. Honestly, anyone who thinks like that is one I would consider both inhuman and frightening.

